When the Fire is Gone,
what do you do?
Writing real things
isn’t easy
because
most things
are fake.
I had a dream last night
where I was having a fight with my first girlfriend
in front of the whole school.
I have never punched a woman, but in the dream
I was preparing to
and the whole school dared me to
and I wasn’t going to hold back
I was going to tackle her, and pummel her face in
hit the key spots
her nose
her boobs
all the places that would hurt
Then, I thought about it…
What if I lost?
And what if I won?
It was a lose/lose situation for me
there could be no victory.
What if she beat me up in front of the whole school?
Everybody would cheer
and I would be branded with humiliation for the rest of my life.
Suddenly, I remembered…
She had a black belt in karate
and I had never been in a fight.
She did Brazilian Jujitsu on the weekends for fun
She danced. She was good at many things, I had never tried.
I would have to hit her hard
Even with her skill and technical ability, she was only a girl, I thought
and it would hurt to get hit by a boy,
but what would happen if I won? I would be a woman beater, a coward, a nobody
prosecuted, and put in prison.
In my dream, I didn’t even know why
I wanted to fight a woman
let alone, my first girlfriend
There must be some symbolic significance,
but I’m not sure I want to know what that is.
I was doing air-punches
in preparation for the fight
awkward, spinning back-kicks
that I learned from watching Jean Claude Van Damme
Then, I thought about shaking her hand
to settle our differences
but I didn’t know what those were
My relationship with my first girlfriend
lasted two weeks
until I broke it off
It was boring
I hated three-way calls
with her other girlfriend
A three-way sucks
when it’s communication
I was listening to two girls talk
about their cats
Teenage girls don’t have much to say
they get old, and they don’t have much to say
all they were
was young.
“A three-way sucks when it’s communication” 😂 😂
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Too True!!! 🙂
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You sound trapped. By something in real life.
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Spot On! The trick is to get out of the trap!
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