What men can do
when they’re down, is a fascination for me
It’s an amoral admiration
like when Ted Bundy lost 30 pounds to escape through a ceiling vent.
How many of us would like to lose 30 pounds, but can’t?
And how many of us worry about getting caught
not paying the bills?
But Bundy is out there
Being Bundy—with the FBI, trying to track him down.
Then there’s the car-jacker who leads a high-speed chase on national TV
with three helicopters in pursuit.
When they nail his car, with the spike strip
he keeps driving
and when they do a pit-maneuver
he jumps out, and starts firing
suicide by cop,
and much more glamorous
than the quiet man
who falls asleep
and forgets to wake-up the next day.
I guess what I’m trying to say
is that I admire guts—and it doesn’t take guts
to live within the law.
I think about breaking it
because thinking, won’t land me in jail
One day, it might
but until then,
just to write.