What men can do

when they’re down, is a fascination for me

It’s an amoral admiration

like when Ted Bundy lost 30 pounds to escape through a ceiling vent.

How many of us would like to lose 30 pounds, but can’t?

And how many of us worry about getting caught

not paying the bills?

But Bundy is out there

Being Bundy—with the FBI, trying to track him down.

Then there’s the car-jacker who leads a high-speed chase on national TV

with three helicopters in pursuit.

When they nail his car, with the spike strip

he keeps driving

and when they do a pit-maneuver

he jumps out, and starts firing

suicide by cop,

and much more glamorous

than the quiet man

who falls asleep

in bed,

and forgets to wake-up the next day.

I guess what I’m trying to say

is that I admire guts—and it doesn’t take guts

to live within the law.

I think about breaking it

everyday

because thinking, won’t land me in jail

One day, it might

but until then,

I’m content

just to write.