the best of times is when I am feeling good,
and doing something that makes me feel even better.
this is rarely when I am in the company of other people
Sometimes, people are magical, but this is extremely rare
it seems that they are always trying to be somewhere else
and they want what someone else has,
or they want other people to want what they have.
Then there are people who make me feel miserable, just being in their company
and they think I should be okay with how they make me feel
but all I know is…
when I get away from them, I feel so much better.
Life is beautiful when you don’t have to react to other people
even if you don’t say anything, there is a gut-wrenching reaction
like I ate something that didn’t agree with me.
I wait for those special days when I feel on top of the world
and it’s rarely a feeling that someone else gives to me.
Often, I think I want to feel great, but it doesn’t happen
It’s the rare day when my feelings take-over
I think something, and it happens
My feelings are stronger than my thoughts
and it seems as if I am who I want to be
on that day,
despite all evidence to the contrary.
I feel victory in every footstep
confidence in each breath
no matter if the voices are trying to take that away.
My feelings are like a hurricane
among their eddies and whirlwinds, without much force
and I don’t know how these feelings come about
but they are worth more to me
they are like the weather
between strong and weak winds
until a magical crack of dawn
between the clouds.