I spent yesterday, completely alone
it’s the only way, to fully experience a day
conversations, cause me to lose the position of the sun.
I ride my bicycle with special sunglasses
green trees and forest paths, become medieval yellow
there is a castle in the countryside
that only I can find
like a secret code
in a book
allowing me, to enter.
With shades, I can see shadows.
Today, was less remarkable. I went to the gym
and a girl, 24 years of age, smiled at me
She held open the door
and I didn’t look at her
I was read around the eyes
from reading, last night
She had brown eyes, brown curly hair
a skinny athletic frame
dressed in a t-shirt I didn’t see
with a smile, a laughing smile.
I thought about talking to her
but, an hour prior, I decided not to talk to anyone
I prefer my own world, to tense surprises.
When I went home to see my parents and sister
She told me her new boss was friendly, but could twist your arm
in a nice way, to get what she wanted
Then she told me, she thought my balls would shrink
because I was taking Melatonin
I went to the bathroom and checked
it’s her experiment
she’s been learning from her mentor
she knows I care about my manhood
she has my balls in her psychological vice
I want to do something artistic with my life
she wants to become like the people she admires
I have a grand ambition to become the king of my castle
but it requires
where I follow
under the sun.