it’s always dangerous to let people know
the real you
I do this inadvertently, with my sense of humor
bits of comedy, inspired by the truth
and who knows if I’m deluded
but I think most people are curious about me.
they wonder why I don’t join in their conversations
even though, I do enjoy watercooler talk, more than the average joe
watercooler talk, is an art
you have to say something interesting, but innocuous
profound
yet simple, in order that people don’t have to think.
it’s the art of superficial humor, without talking about yourself
like I’m doing now.
If you don’t join in conversations, or put in the time
or make sense to people
you’re liable to get shunned
Being shunned is a blessing…
However, I do worry about the meanness of the world
If average people are this mean
what about the above average sadists—the gifted geniuses of pain?
No bother, I’m in heaven now.
Today, I’ve been fasting and losing weight
I drank 300 calories
I believe eating good food is necessary for good art
fasting though, is a spiritual exercise, and writing is in the same vein
I can’t write, if I don’t eat. If I eat too much, I get brain fog, and fall asleep
My creativity is a science…
I’ve been taking vitamins to write better
I go for short runs to get oxygen to my brain
I even think about planning adventures, to write about
but when I become machine-like, my writing is dull.
thinking should inspire writing, and not the other way around
I have a few good ideas for short stories, but with the short story, I have to want to write it
a good idea is not enough
life is about balance, and I’m always out of balance
strange, though
when I have endless free-time, I struggle to write
when my time is full
I’m fighting to write one more line
Life is better when you have to fight for it
As I lose the pounds, I feel like I’m losing myself
I’m out of balance
lighter, than before
and that’s why I’m writing.
Intellectual Shaman 
Couldn’t have said it better…reblogging.
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I’m glad that you enjoyed it Nan Mykel! Thanks for commenting and sharing my writing. 🙂
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I really resonate with showing the real you and the hesitance, the danger in that. There’s always that fear that lingers. Sometimes, I think I’m good at small talk until I realize I’m really not. If all else fails and I’m finally let alone, there’s always writing to turn to. 😂 I find this evocative to me and extremely beautiful in description. Very well-written!
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Thank you so much Lucy! I’m so glad my writing resonates with you, and I’m not the only one who feels this way. I think it’s true, we read so that we aren’t alone. I have been reading my favorite writers, lately. I have been staying away from people, and spending time with my friends in literature. It’s good to take a break from humanity, from time to time. Your words make me want to keep writing… there is nothing better, than when someone gives you fuel! You made my day. 🙂
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I like your line, “when I have endless free-time, I struggle to write”. Living is writing.
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Living is writing. Sometimes, my life helps me with that–even when it’s painful. I guess, I can always write about it! Thanks for reading Jasper!
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I have been sharing what life is like living with a brain injury. When not much happens I lack material to write about. When things go sideways I have lots of thoughts streaming and swirling around in my head. That’s when writing becomes a wonderful outlet for me and hopefully helpful information for those who read. Reduces my risk of getting discouraged.
Boredom is the opposite of living.
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