A genuine emotion
a negative emotion
than trying to feel
when you don’t feel
We go through periods of drought
it’s not total peace that does this
but wanting something when the time isn’t right
there are writers who make waves in their mind
and there are writers who have to wait for the wind
in their no mind.
When we don’t need a release
we wonder what to do.
We can read other writers
but this is about as real, as trying to have a good time when we don’t want to.
Boredom, is inevitable
the state before boredom
is usually prolonged relaxation
but sometimes, it can strike
like a lightning bolt
and we are gone.
I have started more addictions
than total stress.
Addictions, are just a replacement for feelings
and when we don’t feel anything
we desperately need to
there are people who are trying not to feel
only because they feel too much
hurt by relationships
hurt by disappointments
hurt by the cruelty of the world.
I prefer the hurt, to the boredom, now
feelings are a gift
fighting with a lover
making up with her
making out with her
making a life, that means something.
Most of what we feel is manufactured
so we can escape
the reality of our own desert
from the false oasis
this mirage will keep us lost and thirsty
the people you hate
seldom think about you
the poison you drink
will kill you
it’s an addiction
that isn’t real
making it impossible to feel
and anger is the addiction of the world.