“You’re so arrogant,” she said.
“I just know what’s important.”
“I bet I know more than you.”
They don’t share my enthusiasm
although they pretend to, at first
at the end of the day, they say “goodbye”
and when I say “Hey, goodbye!” They’ve already lost interest
They notice things about me
and when I show them more
they disapprove
My confidence has been growing
like a robust weed
it doesn’t belong in their garden
with neat rows
of sickly tomatoes
waiting to be harvested
they’ve poisoned me with their sarcasm
and public humiliation
leaving me to die in the dirt
“you’re so bitter, you must hate women.”
“No.”
It’s true, and I marvel at myself
I’m sweet
despite being rooted in the same spot
for so long.
Where does my confidence come from?
It comes from becoming
who I want to be
dismissed and labeled
fenced off and forgotten
I’m okay with that
Most are stunted and half-dead
waiting to be harvested
I have no place
in their garden
and as I keep growing
they wonder what feeds me
it isn’t their opinions, good or bad
it isn’t success, in their eyes
but success, in my own
I don’t need their empowerment
I don’t need anything
and they hate me for that
“You’re so arrogant,” she said.