Every man that I know
is weaker than the first
these beta men
are tired of pretending
but the alpha
never needs to pretend
this is a universal truth
when understanding power
women can sense when a man is faking
I don’t want to pretend
I want to make it real
so my actions can’t be denied
so my heart can’t be questioned
why? why would I retain?
if not for love, then what?
respect?
Yes; most definitely. Respect.
I want freedom; and this includes freedom from addictions
of all kinds
to know the truth
is not enough
it must be practiced
put into action
it must be reaffirmed
every day
I remember when I was writing in the mornings
just writing words to myself
that had no meaning
indulgence
does not matter
unless it is accompanied by great success
now, I’m stumbling around in the dark
wishing for things I don’t have
not sure how to get them
not even wanting them
magic eludes most men
it’s not even that I want what magic brings
it’s that I just want magic
if we indulge
we lose it
abstinence
will increase it
all things
want control
so, how do I remain free?
this obsession
has been following me
Only Power
the cultivation of power
will take me
where I want to be.